Hi, my name is Alexia. I am an aspiring artist.
I just graduated high school and people often ask me what my career is going to be. They look at me funny when I tell them I am going to be an artist. And I mean, I get it. I don’t blame them, I too have often had doubts about choosing to go down this path. But you know what. I am going to need to work the rest of my life anyhow… might as well do something I love doing!
I know it won’t be easy. But I prefer becoming an artist, doing something I truly love for the rest of my life and have a small income than waste my life at a horrible 9 – 5 desk job. But, that’s just how I feel about it anyhow. I know some people who love desk jobs, but I am not that kind of person. I need to be excited with the work at hand, I need to have the ability to do something different everyday, or else I will get extremely bored!
I do know however that I will need a job so I can pay all my bills on time, and the cash to buy my art supplies with. But I’ll have my art as a side job for a while and slowly merge over completely to it once I have a regular, steady income.
I cannot lie, it is hard. Knowing that there are so many people out there who doubt you. Even family and friends, sometimes look down on you just because you’re chasing your dreams. They look at you as a dreamer, nothing more. Just some kid with their head in the clouds. They think it will never come true for you. And it’s saddening because when you need the most support from your loved ones, you get exactly the opposite.
Everyone has dreams when they’re little. But children are expected to outgrow their dreams just to take their place in the “real world”. And to a certain degree that is true, and lately I have realized it even more so. You have to come to realize that you will need a job, you will need to pay bills (even if you don’t want to), you will experience heartbreak, you will see loved ones become elderly and sick, you will experience sadness. I have experienced these all first hand, and it ain’t pretty. That is the sad fact of life. But that does not mean you have to give up all your dreams. Because in this sad thing we call life we must still have ways to find joy and happiness, even if others mock or ridicule you for it. I feel pity for those kinds of people, because they settled. They found out how sad, depressing, difficult and miserable life can be and they allowed all their dreams and hopes to just be thrown out the window. They did not strive for their dreams to become reality. At least I am trying.
I have heard many comments that lead me to believe that people do not believe I will make it. I’ll never sell, I’ll never become rich or famous. And that is probably true. I’ll probably never become super famous or exceedingly rich. But, I can proudly say that I have only been at this for a few months and I have already sold 3 paintings and I have 2 commissions coming my way. I’m doing it! I am an artist!
So to all those people who call me a dreamer. Yes I am a dreamer! I am not going to let this world get me down so easily. I am going to chase after my dreams as best I can. And if it doesn’t work out… well it did’t work out. But at least I tried.